Saturday April 17, 2021
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Goodnight friends! More open skies today, a cold vibrating blue of sheer unnamable distance that sends a faint electric tremor across the skin. The iconic flowers of early spring beginning to pale and curl in at the edges, even indomitable celandines seeming less abundant along stream banks. The sad and beautiful sight of a fallen bird nest, a gorgeously intricate construction flung among brambles by some terrible gust or altercation.
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Still feeling both the promise and the tedium of an uphill climb – back in the territory of 'as normal, just a little worse' with little dizzy spells, intense shooting pains and long sluggish interludes. Bit by bit through patience and care I'm recovering, and able again to relish those little capacities I begin to treat as normal during a prolonged energetic spell.
May we find and nurture compassion for ourselves and each other today!